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Today I didn’t quite have time to think. But I am pretty sure I should be nicer.

As a very often stressed/anxious person I should take care not to take it out on people. Even when they are causing the stress. It’s one thing to say, “your feelings are valid” and another entirely to say they are objectively correct. When I see something done wrong. A decision that was not particularly good. Suboptimal strategy. Stupid things that could have been 10% more optimized. I start to point out things that could be done better. I sigh. I am snarky and I am a little hater. In fact, watching someone play a game and doing helpful but not particularly nice commentary is one of my favourite activities.

I make excuses for other people often. For total strangers I reserve the grace.

But the closer someone is to me the higher the standard I apply to them. And as often as I make excuses for my own faults, I also seem to believe that anything less than 100% is a failure.

That could be one of the reasons I struggle to keep my “good habits” decisions. Because I treat one slip-up as a total failure. If I don’t give it my all, why bother at all? Partial failure is a failure too.

So maybe today’s decision is to let others (and myself) make mistakes. There is no way to be perfectly optimized. Absolutes don’t exist in nature.

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